December

This December is bittersweet for me. I love the holiday season even though it causes stress for me. Between gifts, baking , cooking, cleaning, decorating, parties, and now an infant there's a lot going on.

It's Max's first Christmas and we are establishing a few traditions! Like new Christmas pjs, opening presents just us on Christmas morning, reading the Christmas story from the Bible, and some others yet to be decided. But in the back of my mind, I realize what the month of December is- my last month home with my Max. I'm so lucky to be able to take 16 weeks off but I'm so sad already at the thought of not being with him all day. While I know I couldn't be (both financially and for my sanity) a stay at home mom, I'm going to miss him like crazy.

I'm sure what I am feeling is normal, one moment wanting to stay home and the next soo ready to have an adult conversation and be back at work. I feel like I'm already between two worlds, and I'm not officially working again. My little guy will be taken care of so well by Grandma and daycare but its hard to think about someone else getting to see his smiles all day and not me. I know it will get easier, and right now I'm enjoying every moment and cuddle. :)

From my family to yours, I wish you a calm and happy Christmas season.